Mood of a Person

從前有份真誠的愛情在我面前,我沒有珍惜.到失去的時候我才後悔某幾.人丗間最痛苦某過於此.如果上天可以給我个從頭來過的機會,我會對她說一句話,我愛你.如果非要再這愛加上一個期限,我希望是一萬年 ..rite?Love does not have to be together..all you will pray for is ur another half will get the happiness she or he should get..as for my case..waiting for her reply is a Torture..Cold shoulder was given to me whenever i talk to her..it’s the sadness thing when u love a Person and whenever u talk to her..she dun talk much thing back to u..So for all those dat can happiness from who u love..Tresure it Fully..u nv know wat will happen to u or her in future…

P:S this are from my bottom of my heart feeling now..does not mean to K or wat..And somemore..she will nv get to know wat i am writing in here anyway..

hi..dunno how to start as it like totally Mess up in my brain..1stly..abt my wooing for K had turn sour..dunno why as i started to lose the interested of wooing her now..maybe due to too many time of asking her out and kena lot of Crap reason and kena reject ba..think i’m not the guy for him anyway ( since primary school ) i was under stress and stress will made my mood go Real bad..like yesterday..after sending Karen and her friend back home..i actually went to sembawang park alone to Cool down my brain and to let the flow of the water over there to erase my memory for K..i was there nearly 2 hour and this really made me dun think too much..

Reach home at ard 4plus wif a tired Body..was feeling better..at ard 12.37am..K msg me..saying goin to join them at serangoon?i Reply to her..since some1 was there to send her back..why bother asking me to go there and hardly got a conversion wif..i rather choose to be alone rather than a Big Crowd watching Argentina VS Mexico..Sweet moment really will be a Sweet moment onli..when she down..we were like Guards from her palace..treat her Real good..follow wat she say and do to made her happy..but do we really need to do dat or not?Well maybe i overdoin it to let her feel abit scare abt wat i did to her ba..Since her school open..i like a Stupid guy waiting for her reply and onli till nite time then i will receive her reply..i dun wan to give myself any more reason why she reply dat late and i got to face the Fact..

Therfore..after this week ( sunday ) end..i Swear to myself that i will not do these 3 Stuff or rather Ask these 3 question to her anymore..1stly..I will not ask Her whether wan to go fetch her home and fetch her up Unless she ask me to..as like a Farking Freak keep asking her this question and everytime i get is.."oh no thanks..i on my way aleady or Oh Thx for offering..i been getting to learn how to travel.."So everytime we go out..i will not ask anymore..2ndly..I will not ask her out ANYMORE..why??Hmm everytime i ask her out..Lots of Crap Reason will pop out..and sometime really piss me off is..she say she going out wif her friend..but ended up..her friend is some1 we know for a long time aleady..she just dun wan to tell me she goin out wif him..Weird..therfore..why bother to ask a Person out if she keep on thinking of Farking crap Reason to reject u nia..i rather find some GF or other to acc me..not dat i onli got her in my contact list to go out wif..Lastly..I will start to msg her Lesses and Lesses..even though like dat my chance of wooing her will be like zero Percent..but Do u all really think even if i keep on asking her that asking her this..will my percent increase??i DUn think so..i getting Tired of asking her this and dat and kena reject aleady..Man..i tired of this ..Really Tired..Tired till i feel like jumping down to the Ocean and Start a New Life out of it..SHe is the 1st girl dat i love in primary school..and dunno why till now..my feeling for her is dat strong since she still wif her bf and we get contact each other a few years back..I been asking myself why i really like her dat much..isit beause she is pretty?or really as wat my girl in friend say..FEELING<–??

Watever it is..i must pull myself out from this pile of trouble dat i in now and get on goin..Maybe i will just left singapore for a few year to china to help out my cousin Big Business over there then Come back to singapore and start a New Life without her in my mind ba..If really can do dat..I will..for the Time like this..

P:S. Sorry to Write out a Boring and Boring Blog for this time saying my feeling out abt K..as i really no1 to turn to or speak to..if i still dun Voice out..my Stress will Increase More..and no1 care abt wat i in ..Bye..hopefully my next blog will be a Nice result..

Sunday,18th of June..yesterday Sat is a Great nite wif Karen and Xueli..fetch Karen up at Sembawang then drive to Xueli House..1st time to this Chio bu house..Very Nice Decor and was welcome by her Register Loud Voice haha..It’s Samsung Tv attract my attention..How i wish my room got 1 of that to watch WC..We bought Tibits to her home just to watch her wedding video and Photo that was taken on that day at her big day..haha To no Surprize..She keep on complaining her appearance in the Video is not pretty enough..but to wat i see..Ger..You look Great ok..dun think Much..Then was chatting throughout the nite..these 2 ger really loaded man..( maybe i’m just too Poor recently)few hundrend dollar consider cheap to them le..haha so i give lot of hint to both of them dat i wan this and that..but Mostly Just Kidding la..Dun take it to heart le..then when our conversion start to turn in ghost Story telling…karen was scare like Mouse le..lol so Funny..

During the conversion..we do talk alot..and Xueli say I really talk without thinking but she like my char like this..rather than Hiding Something from her or act Gentleman..But sorry lo..unless u r the ger i like or Love ( like K ) or not i will treat u like my Bros..lol..ard 2.30am..karen feeling abit tired liao..so Suggest to me that time to left Xueli alone at her home liao..and it’s anything for me so after the Warm farewell from Xueli..i send Karen back to sembawang and to her home lo..as quite late liao..not safe for a ger to left her just the mrt station..on the way..Auntie Xueli call karen say dat she was scare also when we left her house..i laughed at her through Karen Phone and tease her for that..Reach home ard 3am++ was so tired that after my shower.."bomb" to my bed and Doze off..

Sunday..so sure dat K will take my car..but she instead of driving her mum car rather than taking my car to Y.C.K for our badminton session..was quite disappointment as though she will take my car to there..due to Jolene Hungry for food..i stopby Mountain.Ocean.Sun for her burger..then reach there late..but K was even more late than us..was arrange to pair wif her for double team for badminton..but..during that time..i can really feel that She rather wan Wj to be her partner as she more comfortable wif wj ba..was quite jealous at that time..But Bo bian..Wj got gf so maybe she feel more comfortable wif that ba..So everything ended fast as we book the court from 1pm-3pm onli..then after that i pass her something and telling her tomolo i will be on leave so let her know i reall free to send her to N.I.E but look like i goin to waste my leave tomolo..as she like dun wan me to send her there..Ard 30min ago 4.17pm i msg her abt the fetching her stuff..but till now 2hour had pass..she haven reply me..that is her bad habit..and just had a conversion wif jolene abt my future wat i wna to do..it really nice to find som1 that can give u suggestion or listen to u..I really need that Now..as no1 realli know wat i was facing..Stress for relationship?or work or money..WHo know..but rite now..i just wan to be Alone..thinking Nothing..to let my mood calm down..or not i will go Crazy!! really..Pls…think i wil just switch off my hp for a month then See who really care and Think abt me better..but blog i will be here to write..Peace Off!!

我不知道为什么这样..爱情不是我想象就是找不到往你的方向..不知该怎么遗忘..站在雨里泪水在眼底..不知该往哪里去,心中千万遍不停呼唤你.不停疯狂找寻你
我是不是该安静的走开,还是该勇敢留下来,我也不知道那么多无奈,可不可以都重来,我是不是该安静的走开还是该在这里等待,等你明白我给你的爱永远都不能走开

Well due to my connection break down at my home..i get no way to write my blog..ubt can tell u that..these days really had no feeling of writing a new blog for u all to take a look at..1st of all..between me and K..there had been a misunderstanding due to no reply or ans call from me..mostly becoause she is quite busy wif her stuff ba..but i rather she is busy wif her thing so dat she can forget abt her unhappiness dat happen to her recently..like wat i tell her in msn..at a small corner from her heart..there will be a GUy waiting for her and standby so dat when she need some1 to support her..i will be there at once..

Yesterday ( 15th - june ) is my Buddy birthdya..i can’t write her a Testimonal due to no internet in my home..but since i can use computer from my office..i wish her All the best and Keep in contact ( been long enough since i talk to her or meet her up )these days i been wonder whether wat is realli Life abt..Busy earning money?Making new friends? Achieve Success of wat u wan?but for me..if u wan success of wat u gain..Stress will be there for u for sure..I Dun like to give myself stress or not i will be moody everytime..but rite now..i got to made a Big CHange now..My money is not enough to feed both of us..so i looking for a new job after i get my bonus Soon..

Rite now at this moment i still waiting for K to reply my msg that i send to her since yesterday..lol..Hopefully on monday i can send her to NIE for her register for been a teacher ba..and now then i know NTU is a realli Big Place where when i drive in there i will get Lose in there le..like a Guy from Mountain lol…Anyway..No stress no gain..got Stress…Cope wif it or not u will not be Happy..  ^^ Bye….

Recently i had been busy wif my work and also Blog ba..as i think Blog can really let my Feeling out without caring wat other people see or comment..Thx for those who read aleady and Comment and Pray for me ba..So i had find a Song that can Replace my Feeling now..wan to know wat song is dat..Look Below:

England Win!! But..not a good match..think they haven get into the Stress they having ba as most of the people like england this year ..Yesterday ( sat,10-06-06 )Zq chio me and K for a Show..though ya hor..can watch movie is not a bad idea..and So agree wif it..at 1st i though watch movie and somemore he chio in morning so Must be watching it at afternoon time..therefore i got to plan for Nite time program..as must make sure dat K will had thing to do wif me..Therefore i chio some of my kaki from 54Sab for a Nite at Pub watching WC..

Ard 1.30pm i had gather some of them for WC Pub Tour aleady then Zq call me..Shit..SHow start at 9.30PM!!! England Match Start at 9pm!!Die liao..wat to do wif it..K also duno the match start at 9pm lol..therefore i told my kaki mostly can’t join them for england Match..but Sweden match will reach there wif K..Was told to fetch K up at 8.40pm..Once again..3/4 Pants and a white Single..hehe..But who care wat she wear when she wif me..Watch "She the 1"Where she sit my left and ZQ on the rite..Show started b4 we go in the cinema 6 at cineplex..The show is talk abt a girl dat love to play Soccer alot when her Ger team Been Remove from her Coach and she not happy wif it and She went to her tiwn brother Boy school and pretend to be his brother and Start playing at her brother school team..Lot of Laughter broke out when she was trying to bath or rather act as Her brother..K and i laugh alot but the onli thing we are unhappy is..the Person sit behind us Keep kicking at Us.I got to Angry till i turn my head ard and stare at them..Show end at 11Plus..dunno why everytime ard this timing..K will be very very moody..so i decide to ask WJ out for Gathering at Liquid Kitchen..We watch our Match 2 over thereand finally K mood swing had been cure due to WJ is there entertain her..i tired to entertain her also but dunno why i can’t do much for her..as dunno why watever Ger that i like..i will not joke and play much..lol think i just try to act Cool ba..

After sweden Draw,WJ suggest we head toward Sembawang Park at 2.30Am!!haha Ya 2.30am..so we make into 2 grp and go perpare the thing we wan..due to K moody mood..i ask ZQ to sit my car instead as to let WJ make her mood better b4 joining us later..ON the way there..ZQ and i talk Alot abt K..Until Sembawang park jetty we still talk abt K..But mosty is I who is Talking la..lol Then ard 40min PLus..they reach..i ask Wj why Take so long time to reach and WJ say K had just Cry so she dun wan us to see..at that moment..i go and take teh water i Bought for her and Pass to her gentle and say.." Cry is ok..dun think abt the past aleady k..This is the water for u..drink it ba " And i walk away from her since she at that moment wan to be alone at Jetty..After that..we decide to play Poker wif Punishment haha..i kena twice as got to Block K from Punishment..1st punishment is Sit up 5 time ( chicken feed la..everyday i do 100 3 set )and Shout out loud at S.P carpark for the Plate number haha..Can really see K Smile again and Enjoy our accompany.We play Till 5Am and really Tired Out by now..then WJ go buy his "Wun Ki" and left me,ZQ  and K at the See-Saw..i walk toward K and talk to her..at that time she Say sorry that just now her mood is bad so didn’t talk much to us..i say i understand that.Then i said i got thing to show her and bring her to My car..Due to her favourite is Red or White Wine..i get a Red Wine and 2 WIne glass for her..and tell her that this is wat i Intend to do if After the show and left 2 of us..i decide to bring her to a Place and relax her Mind..She was Shock dat i do Plan for her haha..And she said i was so sweet to her always..and i say i love her so got to do something for her..She smile at me and we both walk toward the See-saw and taste the red wine..We left S.P ard 6.40Am..on the way home..i talk to K abt some personal Matter..and teling her if she was tired then just take a Nap when on the way back ba..( since i know the way back her home very Well aleady )She doze off beside me..I feel like Sleeping too when i saw her doze off beside me but i can’t hehe.when reaching her home..i shake her hand gentle and tell her " Ger..wan to reach aleady..can wake up aleady "She look at me with a very sleepy and sexy look and saying " Thankx Zhenfa "Outside her home..i can saw her maid Mopping the floor..i stop her and pass her the remaining red Wine to her and Also some Stuff from my Shop..at that moment she nearly fall back and lucky i was there to Hold on to her..Telling her to rest More and ask her to call me once she wake up at nite and She say "ok ".Watch her walk into her apartment then i drive away..This is wat happen for yesterday till this morning..THE END!!

Well..didn’t know i so emotion Person as normally if i really wan to tears out my feeling or Stress..i will just go watch some japan Drama as the Story line for japanese drama Sure will earn my tears..but dunno why yesterday i watching I Guess x3 at channel U i do feel abit sad when the host Ah Ya is leaving i Guess x3 and jacky WU sing that song to her..i manage to find the song from a Web where i download my Mp3 song from..wan to know wat he song is talking abt?There Goes..

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